A journey to Inner Healing

This week had moved so quickly, I spent most days either out traveling around with my cousin and her family visiting beautiful places around Japan or taking a day to recover from walking over 12,000 steps a day. In between I would be helping her children with thing like their hair or makeup. Over all it was a pleasant week but, I realized I have a pattern of forgetting to prioritize the things that are important to me when there is so much outside noise.

For the most I was able to remain consistent with the morning pages but, sometimes it would take me a long time to finish because I would keep stopping to get other things done before we left the house. Sometimes I didn’t even get to finish the full 3 pages until it was late. I feel like it kind of defeats the purpose especially when I’m rushing to complete them. I’ve been finding it difficult to immerse myself into what I’m writing instead I feel out of sorts from exhaustion from the busy days or early mornings.

I had also failed to set an artist date for myself, unless I could count simply spending a few hours alone in my room relaxing. I didn’t have the energy to pick up much of anything. I simply wanted to stay in a state of just “being”. I feel like it was much harder to allow myself to flow when I’m going at the pace set by others, which is to be expected.

Although slightly rushed I managed to complete the tasks for this week as well. It really helped me bring back my attention to the things I want to be working towards as well as really considering what I need to do to achieve them. Most of all I realized I need to be a lot more well rested if I want to continue creating without the frustration of being creatively “blocked”.

It’s easy to feel a bit discouraged when we don’t meet our own expectations of ourselves. Especially when we are unable to meet our own goals. A few years ago I would have been especially hard on myself for not being able to stay on track “perfectly”. But, at some point I have learned to accept that if we are to truly to be able to stay in the present moment, there will be what we consider to be “setbacks”.

I like to think of them as moments to reflect on how we can navigate those particular instances in the future. In my case managing my time to better fit my daily goals and prioritizing my rest so I may have fresh eyes when it comes to my creative projects.