A journey to Inner Healing

The truth is you’re going to suck when you first start out in anything. As children we don’t recognize how ugly our first drawings were but, as adults we are overly critical of everything we do because unlike children we compare our creativity. And because of that we are reluctant to try at all. Or at least that was a theme in my life.

I put off picking up things I once loved to do as a child or a teenager. Like art specifically, I came across old sketches I did when I was probably in high school… they are terrible. lol. But it made me happy to see them because I remember at that point in my life I actually thought they came out really well. Honestly for the amount of time I practiced it probably was good at my skill level. But I have improved only so much since then all because I spend time worrying about where my skill level is now instead of working to improve my art. I hide behind learning through videos instead of actually creating. This holds true for other things I wish I had learned or continued to practice and on occasion for new hobbies I’m picking up now.

I used to get embarrassed with the idea of people looking to see what I was working on because I didn’t feel like it was good enough and would be judged for where I was at. But now I think to myself so what if they do judge it badly, hell I think it’s pretty bad right now and that’s okay because I’m still learning and we can only improve from where we stand. Skills may get rusty but they never dissolve, it’s our choice if we want to pick it up and dust it off to fine tune those skills.

I recall my sister telling me about a post she saw, that said “adulthood is just learning to fall in love with what you once enjoyed as a child.” I agree with the sentiment wholeheartedly. We tell ourselves “life” got in the way but I believe a lot of times we allowed it to sweep us away and used it as an excuse to cut off our inner child from enjoying the short life we have on this plane of existence. And while I believe in reincarnation, it doesn’t mean we should stop enjoying the current life we have now. I understand that there are difficult circumstances that will come up, that is unavoidable. But as long as we remember to stop and smell the roses and by that I mean do something that brings you a moment of peace and happiness that is enough to make living worth it.