A journey to Inner Healing

I remember coming across a book that said “make your bed everyday”. Honestly I don’t think I even read it, but that line stuck with me throughout the years. There has hardly been a day since that I skip making the bed in the morning.

I had noticed almost immediately how much of a difference it made. Even if my room at the time was incredibly messy as long as the bed was made it made the room look much more tidy. It was a habit I had to build, a conscious choice I had to make every single day until it became second nature.

During the time I began to build this habit I was struggling with depression. Every activity would quickly drain me of energy, sometimes I struggled to even maintain the most basic hygienic practices. Our space often reflects our state of mind and mine was a mess. My room reflected that.

I made sure to not to keep dirty dishes in my room but occasionally I would end up with a collection of cups on my table and clean clothes, books and hobby materials everywhere. The mess would give me anxiety and I would end up in paralysis analysis for hours. Sometimes days because I didn’t know where to start cleaning.

I wish I could say that by creating this habit it had triggered a need to clean my space right away, but that wasn’t the case. Instead it helped me get out of bed in the morning. Time I took to bed rot with toxic thoughts was replaced with getting up, making the bed and laying back on top of the blankets. Maybe it doesn’t seem like much, but for someone who struggled with depression, it was a goal that I managed to accomplish everyday.

The changes were gradual but I began to pick up or organize one item or an area almost daily. It was a tiny step. Maybe insignificant for others. But for me it was a foundation, a way to move past my wounded thoughts and celebrate my tiny wins.

This was about three years ago and since then I have been able to continue to implement the same mindset. My space isn’t spotless by a longshot but it is organized and with that I am able to maintain it well. I still make my bed every morning because even if my room is messy, it feels so nice to come home to a nicely made bed.