A journey to Inner Healing

I started dressing up almost daily to avoid living in my workout clothes. I began to see just how much of an influence my outfits have on me. While I don’t see anything wrong with lounging in our pajamas or workout clothes I had noticed it’s very easy to fall into the habit of lazing around. You would think you would be more motivated to workout but for me that wasn’t always the case. I realized if I felt too comfortable I would take longer to get things done or even procrastinate, sometimes I wouldn’t get started at all.

I began putting more effort into my appearance everyday in some way. Not only doing my skin care and facial massages daily, something I had developed the habit of doing after much practice, but something as simple as making sure I at least applied my mascara and lip gloss as well as taming my curly hair. It made a huge difference in how I felt throughout the day. When I began to make an effort in choosing outfits to reflect my mood or my comfort level it elevated my confidence. Not only because I felt fully comfortable no matter where I went but I no longer had to constantly check my appearance to make sure I looked decent.

I used to fret about how my hair or makeup looked if I half assed it or readjusted my clothes if I felt they were too tight or too loose. Once I started mindfully putting outfits together I started to reconnect to my younger self and a time I loved styling unique outfits out of the things I already had in my closet. My style has evolved over the years but I recognize my love for alternative fashion has never quite died. There was a time I tried so hard to fit into the environments I was in by changing my clothes by simply dressing down or similar, I knew I had lost a part of myself. I didn’t find much joy in getting dressed up. I found it to be a pain until now, I no longer dress for the validation of other’s. I no longer feel embarrassed being told that my outfit is extra. They sometimes are and I love it.

Putting together outfits has also become a creative outlet which has somehow allowed for a moment to destress, as long as I don’t take it too seriously. lol. I have been feeling more confident, I no longer worry about going to a store or restaurant last minute, scrambling to get ready. But more importantly I have found myself to be more inclined to be productive throughout the day. Instead of scrolling through social media it has shifted my attention to romanticizing my life in a way. I enjoy the little goals I accomplish throughout the day because I feel good doing the tasks.